almost christmas

Thankgod with live in the great white north..becasuae without the snow...christmas would just suck so bad...i would miss my family even more....It is so hard. But I am learning to adjust...at my age I should get used to it....I am done all my shopping...have I done enough...of course I have...do I want to d more....Of course I do...I want to buy tons more but money tells me no. I amsure everyone will be really happy with their gifts. I am thinking...wellno..I know that as soon as christmas and new years is over I am going to have to get a job. Sitting on my ass is not as appealing as I thought it woudl be...and I am afraid my ass is going to get way too big...so ...work it is. Mj is doing okay but I am afraid of her hips and joints...it kills me that she is so sore and I dont knwo what to do fr her... Anythow I dont have alot to say...I hope to post more often after christmas....i wish i could make this blog a little mor colourful...this is really boring...

whitehorse

Well its nice to have somewhere to ventso i have decided that here is better than nothing....its December 1st tomorrow....all my family christmas shopping is done...i have bits and pieces i want to do for mike...i am stressed right now...i wish i could relax but my son is drivng me nuts..he wants to quit his job and work for jordan....he has done that before...it is not a good thing though...they dont work well together...they are really good friends..but jordan can be a real jerk fora boss...not intenionally...he is such a hard worker...and the work is really hard..it isnt what rick is used to..he can work hard...but i dont knwo if he will ever meet jordans expectations...i know i shouldnt worry..but i dont knwo how not to. i dont know how to be just mom....and not worry so much...how do I say Okay honey...thats a good idea...you know what you are doing. I AM A CRONIC WORRIER...I CANT put this on facebook because my mother is also a cronic worrier....so i just want to keep this to myself...and any other poor person who accidentally sees this. living up here sucks...well it doesnt suck..it is an amazing thing..but what do i do if rick cant afford to pay his rent...this is crazy
i wish i wish i wish....that i didnt have to wish so much..that he would quit smoking pot...and work harder and be happy...i wish he was content with what he is doing
wellt hats it for today
i am going to bed
shit