Its pretty bad that the person I dissappoint the most is Pamela Frances Bendall.....Rouleau
Ya....I lie to myself alot...I say I am going to do something then continue to sit on my arse and do nothing....its not like I feel like I am lazy. I dont know what the problem is. Why cant I get up and do it. I cant make myself type up a decent resume....its so frustrating....why..I just sit here like a big lazy ass....I wanna do it...I really wanna do it...i just cant get myself motivated. I lie in bed and think of all the things that I need to do...man...I can barely get myself to shower ever couple days...WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME....I FEEL LIKE SUCH A LOSER
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Saturday, December 11, 2010
almost christmas
Thankgod with live in the great white north..becasuae without the snow...christmas would just suck so bad...i would miss my family even more....It is so hard. But I am learning to adjust...at my age I should get used to it....I am done all my shopping...have I done enough...of course I have...do I want to d more....Of course I do...I want to buy tons more but money tells me no. I amsure everyone will be really happy with their gifts. I am thinking...wellno..I know that as soon as christmas and new years is over I am going to have to get a job. Sitting on my ass is not as appealing as I thought it woudl be...and I am afraid my ass is going to get way too big...so ...work it is. Mj is doing okay but I am afraid of her hips and joints...it kills me that she is so sore and I dont knwo what to do fr her... Anythow I dont have alot to say...I hope to post more often after christmas....i wish i could make this blog a little mor colourful...this is really boring...
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
whitehorse
Well its nice to have somewhere to ventso i have decided that here is better than nothing....its December 1st tomorrow....all my family christmas shopping is done...i have bits and pieces i want to do for mike...i am stressed right now...i wish i could relax but my son is drivng me nuts..he wants to quit his job and work for jordan....he has done that before...it is not a good thing though...they dont work well together...they are really good friends..but jordan can be a real jerk fora boss...not intenionally...he is such a hard worker...and the work is really hard..it isnt what rick is used to..he can work hard...but i dont knwo if he will ever meet jordans expectations...i know i shouldnt worry..but i dont knwo how not to. i dont know how to be just mom....and not worry so much...how do I say Okay honey...thats a good idea...you know what you are doing. I AM A CRONIC WORRIER...I CANT put this on facebook because my mother is also a cronic worrier....so i just want to keep this to myself...and any other poor person who accidentally sees this. living up here sucks...well it doesnt suck..it is an amazing thing..but what do i do if rick cant afford to pay his rent...this is crazy
i wish i wish i wish....that i didnt have to wish so much..that he would quit smoking pot...and work harder and be happy...i wish he was content with what he is doing
wellt hats it for today
i am going to bed
shit
i wish i wish i wish....that i didnt have to wish so much..that he would quit smoking pot...and work harder and be happy...i wish he was content with what he is doing
wellt hats it for today
i am going to bed
shit
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Monday, August 10, 2009
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Day 1
Anyhow I am on the jobhunt of my life. Apparently I am too old...too large...too limited...to what i am able to do. Anyhow I have had an interview at Starbucks...he promised me a second one but I guess he is not in any sort of hurry to hire me. I also talked to a guy at a pawn shop...which at first seemed scarey...but once I went in I was really quite fascinated....do you guys know what kind of deals, in these times, that you can find in a pawn shop at really good prices...seriously...there were some good deals there. And for the men out there...tools...they had millions of tools. I applied at a vet clinic...which i would also love cuz i love animals....but I dont have very much computer experience...and my cover letter and my resume pretty much showed them that....so I dont blame them for not calling. And best of all I have an interview thursday with the company that does school photos...fun...what could be more fun than taking pictures of kids all day...i am going to try and convince them to make funny funny faces...
Anyhow thats it for today....cross your fingers for me...maybe i will be working soon..
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